ok well its been a while..lets see what is new......dad's factory is being moved to mexico so while he is in limbo tryin to find a job and more than likely he wont find one with the same pay rate, im gonna have to step in and help out the family. i dont mind doing it all, i mean its family ya know, but it seems like holy crap im never gonna get out of this cycle. so with that happening i have to say goodbye to getting my new car...byebye mustang......family went on vacation the week of the 4th and i stayed home and worked and bought way too much alocohol but apparently didnt drink near enough bc my stress never went away....im back working in newburgh now, which i thought would be wonderful..until i found out all the shit thats being said about me...so today i just laid all the ugly truths out in the open and now the person bugging me about it barely spoke to me so i guess thats good....so now the only person that i really talk to on OTFD is chad...(sorry jen..ya know i love ya girl)...hes the only one that knows the truth and everything else and doesnt seem totally freaked out by it....oh well.....everything has just been super crazy....looking forward to getting off of work in the am and going home to what seems to be my only friends....capt morgan, jose cuervo and mr vodka....should be just thrilling